Daily Goal Setter*

In the last couple of months I have felt a bit lost. Not in a downward spiral of a mood sort of way but more just in a monotonous life routine of waking up, trudging to work and then returning home to eat and sleep again. A self-inflicted routine where I pushed things like blogging, walks and all the other things I enjoy aside. Getting gifted a daily goal setter planner by Mål Paper has really helped me to refocus my wants and goals for today and also in years to come.

I love lists. I currently have a note saved on my phone that is a list of lists that I need to create. Putting things down onto paper, ordering priority and fixing it into my mind really helps me to stay focused and appreciate what is and isn’t essential on a given day. Therefore, I got fairly excited when I was offered the chance to give the daily goal setter a go.

Of course, I chose a nice muted pink that has gold embossed writing on the cover. It would be amazing if they offered a monogramming service for either the front or the spine of the cover as this would make it feel even more special and look extra delightful. The quality of the paper inside is wonderful too and I am able to write using a fine point sharpie and the ink not be visible on the other side (and being able to write in big bold colours really helps motivate me to stay on track). But the design feature that excites me most is that it has not one but two ribbons for marking your location which given the planner has two distinct sections is logical but still welcome for making the usability of the product that bit more enjoyable and less clunky.

The front of the planner gives you a handy little guide and recommendations as to how to go about creating your lists, focusing your mind on tasks and being able to reflect on each day. From reading these pages it quickly becomes apparent that this is aiming to be more than a simple plan your life piece and instead be incorporated into a general life wellness routine of affirmations and joy.

With a section for long-term, medium-term and short-term goals you are able to jot down things in a way that allows for you to quickly flick to them at the start of each month to plan what you can do to work towards those goals. From there you have monthly, weekly and daily breakdowns of what tasks you have to do and it encourages you to follow a structure that identifies importance on these tasks rather than just writing everything down in a way that gives it the same priority; something that many of us fall into the habit of when we think of things we need to get done as we fixate on it rather than considering that some items have a little flexibility.

The daily breakdown pages also feature sections of things to be grateful for, daily affirmations, great things that happened on the day and a little scale for you to rate how your day actually went. If there was a short one or two lines for a note underneath this that would make the page layout completely perfect. For people used to using lists, like myself, purely for what needs to be done in a way these additional details of things to fill out prove quite a challenge to begin with but once they are part of the routine it is easy and enjoyable to do and allows for a moment an additional focus on wider life.

If you use the planner everyday you get about six months of daily planning from it but because the pages are undated you can use it as much or as little as you like. For me I am likely to use it on weekends and days off from work as whilst there are things that need doing around the working routine there is not usually enough to justify writing it down in a list and it is rarely that urgent that it cannot wait until the weekend anyway. Perhaps those that have a more hectic office life or work from home would find this a useful addition to their workplace.

This is a really great planner, coming in at approximately £20, and I am looking forward to using it more and more over the next few months and especially as I refocus my mind and life to what is really important to me (more on that soon).

What I Eat In A Day #4

1st May 2019


Hunger hadn’t struck at this point, I haven’t really felt hungry these last few days and when I do eat I’m finding myself full up super quickly, so I kept it incredibly basic with a satsuma.


Yesterday we nipped into town and went into the Sainsbury’s where we were lucky enough to be able to snag a few things on discount. We meant to have the garlic pizza bread with dinner last night but ended up forgetting so lucky me devoured it for lunch and throughout the afternoon. Once upon a time I could have eaten it all in one go but I had to space it throughout lunch and afternoon snack time.

Cheese garlic bread


My partner ended up having food out so I treated myself to Chinese for dinner. I got one of the deals that meant that there would be plenty left over and the value of them just makes so much more sense than getting a single dish with a side of rice etc. It was yummy, even if it did takes ages to turn up. I had taken some fishcakes out of the freezer for us to have those with some pitta and salad but as I was going to be eating alone it seemed silly to go ahead with that and instead that’s food for 2nd May sorted!


As if I hadn’t already consumed enough calories for one day, my partner then came home with some Dairy Milk fruit and nut which I quickly had my share of before snuggling into my duvet and trying not to fall asleep at some super early time.

Thoughts and Feelings

I’ve struggled these last couple of days but things seem to be plateauing back out a bit now. The period from hell is over HOORAY but that means I can no longer blame that on being incredibly tired and lacking in energy. This whole shift in hormones is wild.

Bailed on going to the gym this morning and instead had a soak in the bath before tackling some chores (whilst watching a range of Netflix and YouTube of course) and treating myself to a face mask and doing my nails. Whilst doing all that I thought I caught a glimpse of something out of the corner of my eye and proceeded to turn the place upside down on the hunt for this ‘glimpsed’ rodent. I couldn’t locate anything or any sign (noise, droppings etc) of one. Basically it turns out I am going crazy.

What I Eat In A Day #3

27th April 2019


Leftover popcorn from the night before totally constitutes as an acceptable breakfast on a Saturday morning right? Good because alongside some slightly tart blackberries that is exactly what I had.

Blackberries up close


I made the most of the cheese I purchased yesterday and had cheese on toast.


There is a trend to my day here because I had pepperoni oven cooked pizza. I needed the carbs though. I had it whilst I was doing my makeup so it was quick to cook and easy to eat.


I finished off those strawberry laces from a couple of days ago during the course of the day.

This isn’t exactly a snack but at 4am I had a lovely chicken sandwich and fries from McDonald’s. My diet coke made it home with me and into the fridge.

Thoughts and Feelings

Another restless night of horrific nightmares and a painful stomach didn’t exactly put me in an enthusiastic mood for the day. Generally the pain subsided throughout the day though and I’ve just been able to chill out.

My body still felt good and a little alive after the gym yesterday which really gave me a little boost for going forward and getting back into the gym more regularly. Hopefully it will help me to battle the temporary decrease in thyroid hormones that impact in metabolism by allowing me to maintain my weight if nothing else.

Went on a really good night out that wasn’t particularly planned and I bloody well needed it. I loved my makeup, the company and the pub too. It felt good to have some sort of normal in my life. Got home at 04:15 which is always the sign of a good night!

My makeup for a night out

What I Eat In A Day #2

26th April 2019


I was really feeling like having anything to eat but appreciate the importance of keeping energy levels up and sticking to a routine so settled for two slices of Warburtons Toastie bread with Flora light lovingly spread across it.


The snack section explains it. Having said that I did make myself a cup of Whittard’s Toffee Apple tea and it warmed my tummy and eased some of my pains. It’s such a lovely tea, it’s on my list to repurchase sometime soon.


My partner cooked dinner again today. Hooray. Tomato vegetable pasta with bacon. I did get cheese to have with it but we didn’t have any of it. Perfect after going to the gym.

To go with dinner


First it was just one fizzy strawberry lance and then it was five. By the end of the day it was 16. Most of them were consumed in the name of ‘lunch’ though.

An Oreo doughnut. One of those pre-packaged in the supermarket type. Still it wasn’t too bad. It did get me thinking about some of the amazing doughnuts I’ve had in the past though.

Some sweet and salty Tesco popcorn. Post gym I wanted to get something and instead of crisps went for something a little healthier per portion size!

Snack of strawberry lances

Thoughts and Feelings

I had a terrible nights sleep that included the sort of nightmare that wakes you up. Once awake my period cramps returned immediately and kept me awake for a while. One of the things I’ve discovered in doing research is that my lack of periods for nearly a year were almost certainly connected to my thyroid and now my current remaining half isn’t quite there with enough of the hormones and is resulting in the worst period of my life. It’s also likely to blame for the ongoing night sweats which I had the joy of last night too; if the medication to come in the future stops me drenching the sheets that would be fantastic. The issue with being awake is it gives you time to think and as you think you slowly go off the idea of things like breakfast.

I’ve felt a bit out of sorts and ill one way or the other for a few weeks so hadn’t made it to the gym. That combined with my right thyroid lobectomy and it being Easter I maybe hadn’t gone for a month. Despite feeling ouchy I pulled on my gym gear, walked there, did 60 minutes of actual exercise and walked back again. I took it slow and steady but it felt good to be back at it again. I need to do something to offset all the sweet treats I eat!

What I Eat In A Day #1

My life is changing. Most of it is for the better. I want to document my days but in keeping with the blog and my love of food I thought doing What I Eat In A Day posts could work quite well; including recipes or quick how to guides when suitable. Reviews, on the odd chance I go somewhere that I go somewhere exciting, will still be kept separate and then just linked in to these posts.

A job promotion in a different hospital means more money and more of a chance to have a positive impact on patients lives as they go through some of what could be the most scary moments of their life. It also means I need to be more on the ball with my breakfast, lunch and snack choices as it’s a longer commute and I’d really like to be able to save some money by taking things with me rather than succumbing to the canteen everyday.

But amongst all that joy and excitement, combined with seeing family and friends to go on unexpected adventures, is a harsh reality. I’ve been quiet over on the blog for a while and there has been a reason. As well as death in the family I have had to deal with my health.

In August 2018 I had a CT scan which showed an incidental finding of thyroid nodules. In December 2018 I finally chased to asked if I would be getting an appointment to investigate this (a rarity given how people usually comment on my irresponsible approach to my wellbeing). On the 27th February I had my first thyroid FNA (fine needle aspiration) which proved inconclusive. On 27th March I had another which returned with Th3f meaning it could have follicular malignancy but they still can’t really tell. On the 15th April I had my right thyroid removed and sent for further testing. On the 24th April I was told that the nodules which took up a huge amount of the half of my thyroid were indeed cancerous and I would need to have the other half of my thyroid removed, go through radioactive iodine treatment and then take synthetic thyroid hormone for the rest of my life.

In honesty this blog series is as much about keeping me sane as it is about talking about some tasty, and probably very standard and mundane, foods. I’m hoping it will grow into something exciting and also bring my love of experimental cooking and baking back out.

That’s enough of a rambling introduction though…

25th April 2019


Two slices of white toast with margarine and co-op blackcurrant jam – e.g comfort food breakfast that is in no way healthy for you but ow so delicious. You know its serious when I buy a loaf of Warburtons Toastie bread!

Jam on toast for breakfast
Mid-morning Snack

A large handful of green grapes. I’ve had some pretty hit and miss grapes recently but these ones are crunchy on the outside, burst full of juice and actually have plenty of flavour to them too.

Bunch of green grapes


A nap. Seriously my body decided 12:30 – 14:30 was perfect napping time.

So at 15:00 I sat down to a lovely bowl of co-op minestrone soup. Comforting and full of some sort of goodness!

More grapes. Ill people eat grapes and oranges right?

Minestrone soup in a duck egg blue bowl
Afternoon Snack

Twelve strawberry laces. Because apparently six is a portion size but given I’m not the size of your average five year old I was obviously never going to listen to those rules and the minute you have seven you might as well just go all the way up to twelve.


My partner cooked a very filling and tasty vegetable curry with white rice and a samosa. It was a bit of an unusual combination of vegetables but it hit the spot of comforting heat in the belly.

Vegetable and potato curry on a bed of rice in a large bowl


Chocolate cheesecake slice, again from the co-op (I promise we shop in less expensive places as well!), which had a super chunky biscuit base and was ever so delicious. A real nice treat and helped to give me a little evening pick me up.

I thought the cheesecake was the end of my day but a 42g pack of Galaxy Minstrels also landed in my tummy.

Chocolate cheesecake slice
Thoughts and Feelings

I shared with my parents, family and friends the news today. It proved to be incredibly draining. I told a few people yesterday and found it a relief to get it off my chest but today it felt much more like I was having to admit the truth to myself. Honestly, even with the fairly upbeat attitude I am managing to apply to everything, it got to me and left me feeling a little daunted by everything.

In hindsight the 3/4 bottle of white wine last night probably wasn’t the greatest of ideas but it was bloody well needed last night to just sit there and wallow for a few minutes before getting a bit giggly and tipsy whilst singing away to some music (sorry neighbours I kept all my voice nerves in strong health after my first surgery!).

Decided to avoid going to a meeting tonight where people that would have seen my updates might be in attendance. They probably wouldn’t come up to me and try to discuss it but I just simply couldn’t take the risk and didn’t particularly want to face anybody. I’m going to the gym tomorrow where I’ll catch up with a friend and that’s much more the level of socialising I’m wanting right now.

Acrylic Nails

I always loved the idea of getting my nails done but never really got around to it. I remember getting them done once when I was 20 and was not at all keen on the person that did them, their approach or the results so it sort of put me off for a while. That and for a while the idea of spending money on something like nails seemed like nothing but a dream world.

But of course things changed and suddenly I had spare income and the desire to treat myself in a way that gave me a bit of a boost. Honestly though I got a little bored of it and I know my nails certainly didn’t thank me for getting these bits of plastic stuck on. After three rounds I decided to say goodbye to them and give my nails a bit of break. Several weeks later I can still see the ridge that they created on my nail growing up and a shiny healthy nail reappearing from the cuticle upwards.

Don’t get me wrong I loved them and I think that people that wear them look brilliant but for me the need to maintain them and the damage that they were doing to my natural nails underneath just wasn’t worth it. I have polishes in abundance in my dressing table drawers which deserve to be loved and applied and whilst they chip in 0.2 seconds at least they don’t leave my nails weak and missing shine after removal.

And it wasn’t just what they did to my nail health that put me off but ultimately the joy that they brought to me compared to the amount of money I spent just didn’t tally up for me. Sure the red acrylics made me feel like a total badass and especially when I walked into a job interview with them on and landed the gig shortly afterwards but did they really make me feel any better than when I look after my natural nails, help them to grow and give them a fresh lick of paint? Only the smallest of amounts.

Acrylic nails, it was nice knowing you and I’m sure we might meet again for a special occasion, for now it’s goodbye.

The Joker, Croydon

I’ve never really got into Valentine’s Day. It isn’t because I don’t believe in it or care about it but rather because my partner and I celebrate our anniversary of getting together two days later (16th February 2010 – talk about feeling increasingly old!). So on that Saturday we made a bit of an effort, I mean I did my hair, makeup AND EVEN put a dress on, and headed out for brunch.

We went for a short walk along South End, Croydon before reaching The Joker. I had spotted it a couple of weeks earlier, looked it up online and decided I wanted to head there for myself. As well as having a bar with a range of interesting twists on classic drinks they are home to Humble Kitchen; situated in The Joker and also at a location in Brighton.

The choice of items, such as the marble table and aged armchairs worked well for the general look of the place. We tried to figure out what used to be on the site before and I remember saying that it gave me the vibes of an old Sainsbury’s on Lower Addiscombe Road where they had recently rediscovered the original tiles hiding away. After coming away and doing some research I was able to be pretty smug, though also concerned that I was able to identify the design after seeing one other example of it, because sure enough it was the site of one of the first ever Sainsbury’s!

What we do know is that the original tiles were on the floor and walls, though clearly at one point hidden, and a sympathetic reveal/rescue has been carried out. This is a rare case of somewhere that has a hip nature actually using original features instead of spending more money to give it that rustic feel. All I wish is that there was a photo or artistic piece that showed what the building looked like through the eras to be able to appreciate the tiles in their original setting but that’s a pretty small niche desire of mine to understand the history of buildings.

As we were treating ourselves that day I decided to go all out and have whiskey on the rocks which came with a lovely infused spray. It would usually come with some orange but apparently they were all out, which we only discovered when it reached the table instead of when it was getting ordered. I would have happily stayed with the drink choice that I had made but wish that it was one that I could have changed if I wanted to based on that information. That was probably the biggest issue that I had during our visit there. The drink itself was good though and came in at a very average £9.

What screams brunch more than eggs benedict? Okay perhaps avocado and smoked salmon on toast but there’s only so many ways I can handle being a twenty-something cliche on one given day. The Humble Kitchen had two different options of eggs benedict, one mushroom and one braised beef cheek, and we both ended up ordering them.

The mushroom one, that I opted for, was delicious. The burnt butter hollandaise sauce was smooth an gentle whilst also being full of gentle flavour that complimented the perfectly cooked runny poached eggs. The fresh chive across the dish added a subtle added level of depth without impacting on the dish in any real noticeable way whilst the mushrooms were well cooked, not at all greasy thanks to them being done confit, and had the woody nutty taste to really help bring the dish together. Even with chatting with eating and there being a large amount of sauce on the plate, especially once the poached eggs were opened, the muffin bases stayed warm and with structural integrity instead of becoming a soggy mess like they sometimes can; it showed that they were gently toasted from fresh and placed onto a warm plate rather than toasted from frozen or placed onto a cold plate and that’s the small detail I hugely appreciate.

My partner pulled a happy face and made some ‘this is tasty’ noises when eating the braised beef cheek and you can only assume he enjoyed it because he didn’t offer me any! The mushroom version came in at £10 whilst the braised beef cheek would set you back £11. Given the quality of the food and that it involved eggs made to order I can handle the delay in the food coming out but it did take about thirty minutes from ordering to the food landing on our table which seemed like quite a long time to wait (the kitchen was in high demand as well though!).

There are also a couple of vegan options on their menu meaning that you can go with any of your friends, between 10am-2pm on a Saturday or 10am-12:30pm on a Sunday, for a catch up over cocktails and brunch. If you miss brunch times, thanks to a heavy session the night before, they also serve a different menu throughout the rest of the day that sounds equally divine and worth the wait.

The lack of information about them lacking a bit for the drink and the food taking a while to come to the table would usually be a deal breaker for me. However, the food was good quality, the staff were friendly and attentive and the atmosphere was pleasant. I wouldn’t run there for an average brunch trip out but I would happily go along for drinks and catch up with a friend or family. Some people were also sitting down working on a collaborative project at a laptop and it certainly gave that friendly chilled vibe for that to be possible.

As well as the food and drink The Joker also hosts an art club and various other social get togethers making it a fantastic mini community hub that gives it a real secure place in the heart of South End.